ONE OTHER THING THAT TRANSITIONING MAKES ME HAPPY ABOUT.

I have given the analogy of buying a diesel vehicle and filling it up with petrol and wondering why it starts and then conks out. The reason is obvious; you’ve used the wrong fuel. Trans exclusionary radical feminists claim that women are being erased by transwomen, yet what they are doing is twisting a fact. They say that therapy is available for depression and anxiety, but the reason for your depression or anxiety could well be that the dominant hormone in your body does not align much like petrol is incompatible with a diesel engine. Yes, by all means, consult a therapist while transitioning and before doing so, but therapy should not be merely ticking boxes but nor should it be about forcing a person to accept something that does not align with you.

I have never felt right about being masculine, and the fact that I was subjected to abuse by males, and the abuse was because I was not your typical male has caused me to have C-PTSD that affects me in numerous ways. For starters, I cannot stand having somebody walk up behind me and touch me on the back or the shoulder, especially after an obnoxious and cowardly bully would poke me in the back with a stick or one day, while I was waiting to do my Japanese oral, without any provocation, came up behind me and hit me on the ear. I also do not easily or readily trust many males.

This same bully also used to say my name with a cruel deep voice, or another would say it with a false American accent. Don’t get me wrong, hearing an American speak does not trouble me, but hearing someone with a bunged on American accent can.

As I will be feminizing my name not by spelling, I will be adopting a similar name, I can feel more as though the person I want to leave behind can be left behind.

Some of us want to be able to say, “I used to be Peter, but I’m Petrina, or Petra, now,” and have it as the final step to no longer be the odd one out. And many of us actually have female friends who are accepting of us as us, so we are not venturing into a whole new territory. And we want to be able to leave some painful bullying behind.